Saved by My Chemical Romance

Hello my name is bex Im 16 i live in he uk and here is my story,

 

Ok i was 14 when people really turned to pay attention to me, this wasnt good attention i was constantly threated by the other teenagers in my year i was pushed in to doors brusied daily physicly and mentaly. i became a part of a group of 6 girls we were “outcasted” as the populars labled us, we looked out for each other stood up for each other listened to all kinds of music.

One day there was this new kid phil he told me he loved me i laughed at him, i know it was cruel but i didnt know him and he was popular so it was just normal for me to laugh at them , next period he sat in frount of me as i was taking notes he turned to me with a knief in his hand, i stood  slowly trying to distance myself from him but he stood just staring from the knief then to me i screamed and shouted but the teacher just ignored me, my friend jess shouted for him but he was ” busy” at his computer the class turned watching him,the populars began to taunt me ” Stab the bitch” ” Get on with it phil” i stood perfectly still with fear when my rs teacher burst in, she took the knief from behind phil and took him to the head masters office. i wasnt spoken to by teachers they just left me to it and i was just shocked , thats when it started when the straw broke the camles back as the saying goes. The populars told me how they’d kill me if phil didnt every day they reminded me i was nothing.

As it got dark i looked aimlessly outside my window when it came up on y computer phil had my msn, he taunted me threated me and al i could do is cry, i  punched a hole in to my wall and it helped so much thats when i decided to start self harming when megan noticed it she sent me a song,  My chemical romance ” Im not Okay” it was so true to me i went in to town the next day and baught the cds, and a few t-shirts. it became an addiction i wanted to know everything about gerard frank ray bob and mikey. i found out gerard had sufered with alchol, so i turned to him when i thought about Self harming.

For a while it worked i was cut free for 4 months, until i was left totaly alone one day in school i was bullied worse than ever me and my family hadhad a massive argument and i was depressed, so i went to the chemist at break and baught as mainly painkillers as i could afford, iwent back and during lunch i took an overdose,  hid in  cubical and text my friends “ bury me in black, carry on Goodbye”   megan mitched her lesson in search for me she found me i nthe cubical i was still alive, she ran i nto the corridor and my oldhead of year ran in and broke the door down. i was sent to the nurse who called he paramedics, they told me i had a choice go with them and get cheked out or see a doctor , so i said id see a doctor i never did in the end. i was acompanyed home and my parents watched me constantly checking my bag. th only thign that stoped me trying again was Mcr, I sang the lyrics to myself eveywere and i got through it.

I still  Self harm two years  on but im not as bad as i was, all i know is that i’d be six feet under if it wasnt for them. My Chemical Romance I Love you! .